Yasmin ♥♥ Nellist

♥ `*•.¸ ♥ `*•.¸ ♥ `*•.¸ ♥ `*•.¸ ♥ `*•.¸ ♥ `*•.¸ ♥ `*•.¸ ♥
`*•.¸ ♥ `*•.¸ ♥ `*•.¸ ♥ `*•.¸ ♥ `*•.¸ ♥ `*•.¸ ♥ `*•.¸ ♥ `*

Yasmin Nellist fell asleep on 7th may 1995 46 hours old. Twin sister to Jazmin and sister to Sonia
Terry Roxy Bonnie John Channon and Charlie. Mummy and Daddy love you very much and think about you
every day. Nana Granda and Aunty Serena will take great care of you, give them a big kiss from us
baby xxxx
·.♥.·°.°·. ♥.·°.°·.♥.·°.. ♥°·.♥.·°.°°·. ♥.·°.°·. ♥.·.°·.
♥.·°.°·.♥.·°.. ♥°·.♥.·°.°°·. ♥.·°.°·. ♥.··. ♥.·°.°·.♥.·°..
♥°

It was a thursday night i was 30 weeks pregnant with you and jaz and for some reason i couldnt get
comfy and i was feeling weepy. I went to sleep but was restless so thursday morning i rang my
midwife. She told me to go to the hospital when i described a very slight niggle in my back. Just to
make sure all was well. I got to the hospital and was strapped to the monitor. A special double 1
wasnt available at that time. Since you were twin 1 you were under Jaz and i heard a perfect heart
beat. All seemed to be well and i wasnt worried but contractions were showing on the graph even
though i felt nothing. Then the double monitor was wheeled in. Two heartbeats sounded fine to me but
everytime the graph showed a contraction you were distressed. The midwife said she needed the
consultant. She confirmed i would need an emergency c section. I still wasnt worried. More excited i
would be having my babies today! More and more doctors came in and talked amongst themselves and i
was given oxygen and an injection of steroids to help your little lungs. Your dad and nana were
there. Both looking worried but i wasnt. You were premature ofcourse it was going to be different to
my previous labours. I still wasnt in any pain. Then another doctor came in he started to explain i
would be given something to stop labour he didnt want you to be born today. The midwife looked
disgusted and made it quite clear she wasnt happy about this. Thats what made me sit up and take
notice. I then realised something must be wrong i trusted the midwife she wouldnt cause me worry
without good cause. But she nor i could change his mind. His words were in an ideal world i would be
wheeling you to theatre but we do not have any empty incubators with ventilators im sorry! With that
he was gone. I think i was numb now nothing seemed real. I remember being made comfortable and on a
drip and people running around whispers and tears. Then just before midnight a routine check by a
midwife descovered i was bleeding. There was no choice now i had 2 go to theatre. 1 incubator had
been found in sunderland but we needed 2. Another was found in leeds but there wasnt time to waste
now the helicopter was on standbye and into theatre i went. You were born 6th may 0.52 hours and jaz
0.53. I had 1 glimpse of you before you had to fly. So perfect just small but you were on a
ventilator. I was then told Jaz was in the scbu and was fine she didnt need a ventilator. At 8am i
was taken to sunderland, Jaz was left behind in the scbu in shields. It was quite scarey seeing you
attached to so many wires but i knew they were to help you. We couldnt touch you because this made
you fit. Then me and daddy were taken into a room and told that i had had a placental abruption. You
had been starved of oxygen too long and test results showed you had gone. You couldnt breathe alone
and your kidneys would fail because your brain wasnt telling them to work. We had to make the
decision to turn off your life support. We waited and sat by your cot. Your brothers and sisters
came to see you and everything seemed ok Jaz was brought through aswel we were all together. But
after visiting reality set in again and by 9pm we had made the decision it was unfair not to let you
go. It all happened quickly after that the tubes removed and you were placed in your daddys arms.
You opened your eyes and for a split second i thought you were going to prove them wrong then the
doctor listened to your chest and he said you were gone. We kept you with us all night. Bathed and
clothed you. Someone took photos and i held you as i slept. I couldnt bare to let you go. But as i
slept i dreamt that nana gool came and took you from my arms. I felt peaceful and felt i knew you
were safe. When i woke you were taken away. It wasnt until me and Jaz were back in Shields hospital
i realised we didnt have any photos of you with Jaz or any of the others but it was too late for
that. Just 1 of the many things i will always regret about those three days that seemed like weeks.
We buried you with nana gool and i know 1 day we will meet again. We will never forget you and we
miss you everyday. Be happy darling xxx
·.♥.·°.°·. ♥.·°.°·.♥.·°.. ♥°·.♥.·°.°°·. ♥.·°.°·. ♥.·.°·.
♥.·°.°·.♥.·°.. ♥°·.♥.·°.°°·. ♥.·°.°·. ♥.··. ♥.·°.°·.♥.·°..
♥°

╔╗★
║║╔═╦╦╦═║╚╝╠═╦╦╗
║╚╣║║║║╩╣╗╔╣║║║║
╚═╩═╩═╩═╝╚╝╚═╩═╝ ♥

εїз ♥ εїз ♥ εїз ♥ εїз ♥ εїз ♥ εїз ♥ εїз ♥ εїз ♥ εїз ♥
εїз ♥ εїз ♥ εїз ♥ εїз ♥ εїз ♥ εїз ♥ εїз ♥ εїз ♥ εїз ♥
εїз


HUGE THANKS TO EVERYONE WHO HAS LIT CANDLES LEFT TRIBUTES AND GIFTS FOR YASMINS BIRTHDAY AND
ANGELDAY I WANT TO THANK EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU PERSOANLLY WHEN I HAVE MORE TIME XXXXX